Why can't I be normal?

Life is becoming really difficult for me. Very short moment of happiness and frustration kicks in. I am angry with people around me. I am no more concentrating on my work. My commitment to work has reached 0%. Who should I blame for my fortunes? It's easy to point fingers. End of the day I am responsible for my actions, future. I know my problems........ but search for solutions is making me more frustrated. I am trying to live in my past, ignoring the present and worrying too much about the future.

Me not delivering in the last few months is showing on me. I may act as if things are OK with my life. I have bigger problems which I know needs simple solution. For example I plan to reach office @ 8am but manages only @ 10am.

I am simply wasting my time. My style of living can get me no where. I am pretty sure my best day of life will come soon. Hope is all I have know